I Will Have Joy (2016)

I will have joy in my life, damn it.

I will have giggles
and selfies

and digital cats.

I will have way too many
           pictures
of parachutes,
      Coney Island,
            sunrises, sunsets, sunburns.

I will have purple pens
        zebra printed pillows
              rhinestones on basically
every thing.

I will pierce my ears
        again
            and
               again
and put glitter tattoos on my breasts.

I will dance to no music
 and scream when I’m happy
  laugh too damn loud
   and too much.

I will flirt with those
 I would never fuck
  and fuck those
   I love or “love.”

I will paint my nails
 with more colors and passion
  than the meat and cheese
   I pile on my salads.

I will drink tea and claim
 it keeps me sane
  even if that’s
   not what it does.

I will line my eyes
 and color my lips
  and rub it all off
   before afternoon.

I will care
 deeply
  and passionately
   about Kardashians and children
    of real Housewives.

I will learn
 when I can.
  When I can’t,
   I will try.

I will make my own story
 out of your stories
  I will take my own time
   to write them all.

I will have
 So
  Much
   God
    Damn

     Wine.

And also tequila.

And obviously, cheese.

I will listen to what
 I enjoy in the world
  and tell the world
   what I think and why.

I will have joy, damn it.

And no damn one
 and no damn thing
  will stomp out my joy

my passion
love
smile

ever

  fucking EVER

      again.


I.

Will.

Have.

Joy.